I Miss My Mom

My mother, Sandra McKenzieThe anniversary of my mom’s death happened not so long ago and after much thought I decided not to blog about it… but today has been a hell of a day and I need to vent a little.

You know, mostly I deal well with the fact my mom is gone, I mean, as well as you can, but every once in a while life decides to pick up a stick and just jab it in all my most tender places.

Today was one of those days.

It started with seeing that Mom had given one of my books 5 stars on Goodreads two years ago (because, of course she did) and realizing she could never do that again. Then, because I’m a masochist, I followed the link from her name to her Goodreads profile and started sobbing at the list of books she ‘Wanted to Read’ but now never could.

It just got worse from there.

It’s just so fucking unfair. I miss my mom.

Fuck cancer.

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11 Responses to I Miss My Mom

  1. Ceallaigh says:

    I’m so glad your mom had the opportunity to read your work before she passed.


    • Rhonda says:

      The bitter part of me wants to say “She didn’t get to read enough of it” but the other part of me agrees with you. Thank you Ceallaigh. *hugs*

  2. Von rupert says:

    Your mom’s smile in that picture is the contagious-type that made me smile as soon as I clicked over. I’m sorry she died. My dad died eleven years ago, and that pit of grief can still suck me under when I least expect it, so I know a little of how you feel. (((hugs))) ♥

  3. Holli says:

    Aw, so sorry for your loss, Rhonda. This is so sad. Cancer is such a horrible disease.

    She looks like a pleasant, happy person, your mom. And it’s so kind that she took the time to give you a great review! Not every mother does that.

    Sending you lots of love and virtual hugs. I really feel for you.

    • Rhonda says:

      Thank you Holli, I’ll take all the support I can get.

      My mom had some rough patches in her life but she was growing happier with each passing year until Cancer stole all the rest of the ones she had coming to her. So now we’ll never know where that path would have taken her.

  4. Cat Jenkins says:

    I understand…completely and sadly.
    *a hug from the heart*

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