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November 18th, 2011 (Goals, NovPad, Personal, Shadows)

A friend of mine on LiveJournal posted the list of what she wanted Santa to bring for her as a blog entry last week. I thought it was a fabulous idea because it really gave me some insight into who she was. My list, below is being shared for the same reason. Please don’t think I’m actually asking anyone who is reading this (except you Jo :-p) to get me these things — I’m writing to Santa.

Dear Santa,

I’ve been, well, if not terribly good at least not terribly bad this year. So for Giftmas, I would really love:

  • A hot oil popcorn popper like the one we used to have when I was a kid. I can’t actually find that exact model anymore, I guess they don’t make them these days, but this one here is similar enough to satisfy my nostalgia and provide me with super duper yummy popcorn.
  • I would also really love to “become a chimpanzee’s best friend“. Please. Pretty please?
  • I’m all about the Sims 3 these days but I’m feeling a little limited with my options for ‘stuff’ at this point. I’d positively adore any of the expansions I don’t have yet, or even Sims Points so I can buy some of the ‘stuff’ collections they put on sale on the website.
  • Lastly, if you were feeling super generous, Santa. I could also really use some baseboards and riser thingers for my bathroom and kitchen. If we don’t finish them up soon they are just going to blend into the background and we’ll never get them done. I’ve got the paint for both and I’d really like a chance to use it.

Thank you Santa.

Love,

Rhonda

In more directly writing-related news, Shadows is still coming along well. I’ve had a few bumpy patches in regard to ordering some of my scenes, but I still feel very good about this draft. I’m at 22,692 words and still going strong. Since I started working on it this time I haven’t missed a workday and the consistency feels good. Very good.

I wish I could say I’ve been as consistent with my #novpad this year, but I’d be lying. I have 9 poems, I should have 18. But it’s okay. I plan to keep going through the prompts, one at a time, until I finish them all, even if it takes me until January. For me the point of #novpad is mostly to be writing, and I’m doing that, even if it’s not one poem a day. I’m still pleased with my productivity, so it’s all good.

A couple years ago my friend BD did a personal challenge where she wrote for at least 15 minutes everyday for a year. I’m thinking about doing something similar. I don’t usually write on weekends, so I’d let myself off the hook then, but maybe expecting myself to write every weekday would be good for habit-forming and productivity. You know, assuming it’s not just setting myself up for failure considering the cyclical way my productivity works. This will require further thought, but I’m considering it, and if I do attempt it I’ll need moral support so if anyone else wants in let me know.

And let me know if you have a public holiday gift list. I’d love to take a look.

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November 8th, 2011 (NovPad, Shadows)

This post is mostly going to be about Shadows, but I don’t have a Shadows-y picture to put up there, so I went with one of the images the amazing Darek Zabrocki sent me when he was working on the cover for Lost and Found. This image came pretty near the end of the process so, as you can see, it’s quite a bit like the end result — just with a fewer details. Still, one thing this version has that the end one doesn’t is that little bird in the tree. I love that bird. The cover works better without it, but I don’t mind telling you I was sad to see it go.

So, I’m working on Shadows. What will be the final draft until I have either an agent or an editor to help me apply the final layer of polish. It’s going very well. I started writing this draft longhand in February and finished it in June (I think). I did a workshop in early spring that meant I had to send stuff in for critique, so I broke my rule about letting my work rest a few months before revising for the first few chapters, but once the workshop was over, I shoved those critiques back into a drawer to mellow along with the rest of the draft. That was a good choice. Feedback I’d thought was frivolous or just plain wrong looks very sound and insightful once you give it a few months distance. Also, the story which I’d had personal issues with, is stronger than I’d remembered.

So, yay!

I’m revising as I transcribe from my notebooks onto my computers. It’s been interesting. I think years of NaNoWriMo combined with my natural inclination toward wordiness have taught me some bad habits — or maybe it’s just that the draft I’m transcribing was a fresh draft. A second first draft, as I like to call it, so I can expect some… badness. Still I laughed as I revised “…drew a smile on her lips.” to “She smiled”. Then I opened up a new Word document to track some of the best/worst examples of my wordy-ass (and just plain awkward) writing. Allow me to share :)

drew a smile on her lips –> she smiled
for having not been paying attention –> for not paying attention
The liquor seemed to have done more than loosen his tongue, it had given it wings -> The liquor hadn’t just loosened his tongue, it had given it wings. -> The liquor had given his tongue wings.
The smile that filled her face –> Colby’s smile
He paused, looking around him –> he paused, looking around
as he began to clear a spot –> he cleared a spot
I’m hoping the THING would be able to help make… –> I hope the THING will make…

There are several other examples already but I can’t share them without context or risk of spoilers. As much as some of these make me roll my eyes at myself a little bit, I’m actually really excited by my ability to notice them in my own work and revise them out. That feels like growth to me. Progress. And in this case, progress is good.

Right now I’m estimating that this book is going to finish up about 65k words. That’s a little shorter than I wanted, but it’s still a decent word count for a YA fantasy novel, and best of all, the plot is much stronger in this version than any of its predecessors.

I’m currently at 10,737 words transcribed and revised. Whoot!

As for NovPad… I’m um. Behind. A lot behind. My poem for day four turned into a short story. I’m hoping to make some progress toward catching up today, but I’d planned that yesterday too and it didn’t happen. Keep your fingers crossed for me.

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Today is my anniversary. Another year spent married to this guy. This is Jo. Jo rocks. We’ve been together for just over ten years now, married for seven of them. I love him more today than I did a decade ago and if I were to imagine my life without him it would be a dismal thing indeed.

He’s got his game face on in this picture — we were in the lab and he was pouring things into test tubes for me to photograph. He’s cool like that.

*Insert some sort of clever segue here between anniversaries and music*

Today I’ve got a guest blog over at Beth Cato’s blog. It’s all about music and stories. Check it out :) Once you’ve read my blog post poke around Beth’s site a bit more. I’m the third guest blogger she’s had there recently talking about music. Also, she’s just kinda awesome.

*Insert one more clever segue*

I’m working on a collaborative project with Jennythe_reader. We hooked up via 2xCreative (which I’ve mentioned before here). We’re actually doing a couple projects together. For the first, I sent her a poem I’d written and she is writing it out all pretty-like and then embellishing the paper. I don’t think my description does it justice, but you can hear her talk about it a little bit here. Anyway, I kind of wanted to do something more. Partly because my time investment was pretty small this month (I already had the poem written and only had to send it to her) and also partly because I wanted to do something different. Whenever I work on a collaborative project I provide words in some form or another. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not complaining, but Jenny, well, Jenny is a fabric artist. It just so happens that I paint fabric. How could we not do something that combined those talents?

I dug out my fabric painting stuff from where it was tucked into a corner of the basement and painted three pieces. I will be popping these into the mail to Jenny this week and I’ll keep you updated about what she creates with them. I can’t wait to see!

 

In other, writing-related news, though I’m not doing NaNoWriMo this year, I am doing the November Poem-a-Day challenge. My theme is going to be ‘Classic Horror’ with a focus (I hope) on ghosts.

I’ve also begun transcribing and revising Shadows. Right now I’m only working on the revision part (the first couple chapters were already transcribed), and I’m 4,785 words in. I’d love to use a word count meter of some sort here, but that’s tricky when you don’t know how many words you’re going to end up with LOL I think my last estimate was about 70k but at this point, it’s all a big question mark.

Finally, did I mention that it’s my anniversary? Happy Halloween everyone and Jo, I love you.

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September 23rd, 2011 (Flash, Just Stuff, My Stories)

I’m working on my zombie chapbook today (mostly trying to figure out what to include). That involves a lot of looking at file names and going ‘What the hell is that?’ and then opening them to find out. It’s a bit frustrating but it is helping me clean out folders a bit. Tossing things into the ‘Trunk’ directory when their time has come and reminding me of a piece or two that really just need a little attention to be something I could be proud to submit.

It also resulted in my re-discovering this drabble. I remember writing it back when I first learned what a drabble was (in 2007!) and it was actually my second drabble ever. It falls into a third category ‘Cute, but not really worth revising’. It is worth sharing here though, I think, because it made me smile, hopefully you’ll have the same reaction.

A Long Day

Jack cursed himself for the third time and stomped angrily around the clearing.

If he returned to the ship his crew would know what a fool he’d been and wouldn’t respect him anymore. He should have brought one of them with him to help, they could they have carried the darned chest instead of he, and done the digging too.

Swearing once more Jack dropped to his knees and began to dig in the soft sand; it was going to be a long day.

“What kind of barnacle sucking, bilge-brained pirate goes to bury treasure without a shovel?!” he screamed.

On a related note, there’s nothing that’s humbling in quite the same way as reading some of your old work, is there? It’s inspiring though, to look bad and see how much I’ve improved in the past 4 years because it makes me excited to see how I’ll be writing in 2015 :)

*posts before she can no longer resist the urge to start editing*

;)

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July 31st, 2011 (Just Stuff, Niteblade, Shadows)

I feel like I need to recharge.

That’s the short version.

I don’t really want to go into the long version, not because it’s private or anything, but because, well, it’s long and requires the use of phrases I usually disdain. Phrases like ‘spiritual batteries’ and ‘technological burnout’.

The point is, I’m going offline for a while. My plan is to unplug for ten days starting on Tuesday. That means I won’t be checking or answering email (my own or Niteblade’s) or social networking sites. I won’t be playing World of Warcraft, or checking Niteblade submissions (though the slush readers may).

I’m going to unplug. Spend some time with my family. Visit a beach. Take some photographs. Maybe write, maybe not.

I’ll be back around the middle of August with new energy and a fresh outlook. I’ll be ready to roll up my sleeves for the Niteblade September issue as well as our upcoming special edition. To polish up my new sekkrit projekt, move forward on the story I’m writing with Danica and layout my zombie poetry collection. Maybe, maybe I’ll even be ready to start transcribing Shadows and doing it’s final revision before seeking representation for it. Maybe. But I’ve plenty of schoolwork to keep me busy if Shadows needs to mellow a bit longer ;)

Before I go I’m trying to get an empty inbox on at least one of my accounts — wish me luck. I really and truly need it.

Oh, and try to miss me. At least a little bit.

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A couple years ago Kyle Cassidy paired people up on his blog to work together on something creative. After everyone was partnered up Kyle said ‘Now go and make beautiful things!’. Being the brat that I am, I immediately knew I wanted to do a project titled ‘Something Beautiful’. Luckily for me my partner, Sarah, is also a bit of a brat -and- is into photography.

Things clicked into place for us well at the beginning, but then life stepped in and what was meant to be a 30 day project actually took us more like two years. However, it’s my pleasure to announce that Something Beautiful is finished and ready for release. Whoot!

What is Something Beautiful? I’m so glad you asked :)

Sarah sent me a bunch of portraits and I used them to inspire micro-fiction stories. She added my words to her portraits, using the image as a canvas for the words (clever, eh? That was her idea, not mine). We ran into some technical problems though, which meant that only a few of the images have the stories on them — most have them ‘on the side’ (like gravy. Gravy makes good things better, right?). The point is, you get her portraiture photography which is meant to show the beauty in people regardless of size or shape, combined with my, rather dark, micro-fiction. Yay!

Sarah and I agreed that we didn’t want to make any money off this project, but wanted to use it to help others. That means all proceeds from book sales will be donated to the National Eating Disorder Information Centre (http://www.nedic.ca) which works to educate people about eating disorders, body-issues and self-esteem. Helping people see the beauty in themselves and those around them.

You can pick up a copy of Something Beautiful below:

Something Beautiful in downloadable .pdf – $3.50
Something Beautiful in paperback – $14.99

But wait! There’s more!

Sarah and I have discounted the books, 10% off the base cost which means right now you can pick them up for $3.14 and $13.49. What’s more, if you use the coupon code JULYBOOKS11 you should get another 20% off, up to $25. There are savings all around, with all the profits going to a good cause.

Lastly, I would like to thank Kyle for starting the ball rolling on this probject. I never would have met Sarah if it hadn’t been for his blog, and certainly never would have created this book. It was an adventure and I learned a lot over the course of this project’s completion.

Kyle also started the 2xCreative community on Livejournal which is dedicated to collaborative projects. It’s been pretty quiet over there for the last little while, but I’ve participated in a couple pairings there in the past and really enjoyed them. Perhaps, now that Something Beautiful has been released out into the wild, it’s time for me to drop by and stir things up a bit. I hope to see you there.

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I suck at managing my time. I really, really do. I make plans, I make schedules — they don’t work, or worse, they do for a couple days and then fall apart all around me. My Epic Win! to-do list tells me I’m supposed to make a blog post every Monday, but I’m failing at that too.

To be fair, I’ve a bunch of deadlines kicking my butt.

  • Writing, revising and polishing a short story to submit to the Whittakers every other week
  • Writing, revising and polishing a poem to submit to the Whittakers every other week
  • Writo De Mayo writing goals
  • Self-imposed June 1st deadline for this draft of Shadows

There was also a death in the family that, while I couldn’t make the funeral, did have me writing only about my deceased aunt for a few days. It was good, it was cathartic, but it didn’t help with my accomplishing other stuff.

…that sounds so callous. I hope if you’re reading this you know me better than that.

So, anyway, I’ve been busy, busy, busy. So busy that I’ve been thinking of bailing on my daytime raids, which I love. Hopefully things will come together soon though. WdM and the Whittakers, for example, don’t last forever, and progress on Shadows has been great. I just need to suck it up and keep going. In the meantime though, I’ll probably continue to be scarce around here. Thinking of interesting things to blog about is, quite simply, beyond me at the moment.

I do want to thank everyone who has taken the time to email me and tell me what you thought about Lost and Found, or added it to their shelves in GoodReads to tell the world. Thank you -so- very much. I’m writing you each back, honest, but it may take me a little bit. Thank you. Hearing someone say ‘I loved this story’ or ‘I love CHARACTERNAME’ makes me smile like you wouldn’t believe.

I <3 you all.

Truly.

 

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For anyone new to this blog, I’ve been serializing one of my stories, Lost and Found, by posting one chapter every other week. If you’d like to start at the beginning (which is a very good place to start) you can follow this link and it will take you to the main page for Lost and Found where I’ve got links to all the posted chapters, reviews and all that good stuff.

This week the audio version of the chapter has been delayed, but I will post it here as soon as it is possible.

Chapter Fourteen

Several hours later, Colby, with Bayne and Xavier beside her, looked up at the tower. Smoke poured from its windows. The distant snapping of the flames as they ravaged the interior came to her ears, but not as powerfully as the acrid smell of the smoke assailed her nose.

Her wounds were wrapped with fresh linen and she’d found some clean, dry clothes to change into. They were too big for her, but better than the rags she’d been wearing when they pulled her out of the cage. Colby knew everyone’s injuries were paining them, hers certainly were, but they were all putting up a strong front for one another.

Xavier looked down at the small scroll of parchments she held. One of several books and scrolls she’d relieved Scholar’s rooms of. “Are you sure you want to risk casting that?” He asked for the third time in as many minutes. “He may have mislabeled it or…anything is possible.”

“I’m sure,” she nodded, and turned her thoughts inward, searching for feelings of guilt or remorse. There were none. She had done the right thing in killing Scholar, she was certain of it. Still, a deep well of sadness had opened up in her at her confinement and she needed to do something to begin filling it back in. “I need to know it’s gone – all of it, it needs to be…” she paused for a long moment, and then cleared her throat and continued. “Gone.”

“Okay Cole,” Bayne rested his hand on her shoulder and gave it a light pat. “Whenever you’re ready.”

Safely ensconced on the far side of one of the shacks that remained standing Colby unfurled the scroll. Bits of dried parchment dusted the ground beneath it and she hoped none of the words would become unreadable.  Dropping her eyes, she scanned it quickly, and then half-smiled.

She began to read aloud. Her voice rang out clear and strong, easily overpowering the sound of the fire within the castle’s stone walls. Her confidence grew with each word, as she felt the power of the spell swelling and gathering within her. As she spoke she straightened her shoulders and spoke louder and faster. When the last syllable rolled off her tongue she felt the energy erupt from within her and the air directly in front of the only upright tower began to boil.

A massive sphere that contorted vision around it, like heat waves above a flame, appeared then, in the middle of the distortion a ball began to coalesce. It looked, at first, like smoke, but rapidly gained solidity and color. Twisting and rolling over itself it grew with each rotation until, within seconds, it was a giant, spinning ball of flames.  Faster and faster it spun and then, without warning, shot directly at the tower in front of it.

It writhed and twisted, burning the air in front of it on its way and then crashed, with a sound like a battle in full-force, into the tower. Stones shattered outward, blasting into other parts of the castle and knocking more of their compatriots loose.  More than half of the tower crumbled, ripping walls down as the rubble landed, like an avalanche on them. Then, while they watched in awe, the crippled tower began to teeter and sway. It moved as though caught in a breeze none of them could feel and then it, too, tumbled.

It didn’t fall straight down, but tipped over and slammed into the leaning tower, destabilizing it. Colby covered her ears as the pair of towers descended upon the rest of the keep, ripping it apart with the bulk of their detritus. A cloud of dust larger than the wake of stampede rose up from the ruined building and cloaked it. From within the pile she could hear smaller explosions, evidence that flames still burned within.

No one said anything. They watched as the dust gradually began to clear, to be replaced by smoke as the flames sought out anything flammable and gained strength. Xavier put his arm around Colby’s shoulder, and she leaned against his chest.

~*~

The remaining mercenaries had run off when they’d learned of Scholar’s death, happy with their lives and whatever valuables they’d managed to ransack in the few minutes they’d been given to gather their belongings. Xavier had found it weird, but Xavier wasn’t a mercenary and never would be. Bayne knew they’d move on to sell their loyalty to the next highest bidder, after all, there was no point risking your life without a contract. Still, just in case they decided to return for revenge Bayne wanted to put as much distance between themselves and the keep as he could.

The sun was low in the sky by the time they started back to the portal to Terricina, but despite the time and their injuries no one suggested setting up camp, not even once they were on the road toward Haven. The three of them spoke softly when they spoke at all, but mostly they walked in a comfortable silence.

More often than not when Bayne looked over at Colby and Xavier, Xavier was looking down at her with an indulgent look on his face. Bayne searched himself to find the stone of anger toward Xavier he’d carried in his belly since their trip began, and found nothing. Teyat hummed contentedly in his mind.

They walked through the night, and as dawn broke they trudged up the hills to the portal that led to Terricina. Reaching the stones that marked the portal, they all stopped and looked at one another.

“It’s been quite an adventure,” Xavier said.

Bayne nodded. “Look, I’m going to leave you guys here and head down to Haven for a drink. I’m not ready to deal with Mother just yet and frankly, the last few days have left me in need of the company of women.”

Xavier smiled and extended his hand, which Bayne grasped warmly and shook. “Take care of her,” he said.

“I will.” Xavier nodded and released Bayne’s hand.

Colby put her hands on Bayne’s shoulders and planted a peck on his cheek. “Be careful little brother.”

“Don’t worry about me Cole, you just focus on…” he paused, then shrugged and wrapped his arms around her, carefully dodging her injury.”You did the right thing Colby.  Really. You did.”

“I know,” she replied, sounding more exhausted than sad.

They hugged for a long moment before Colby pulled away.  She wiped at her eyes and then smiled. It was a weary smile, but it didn’t look forced.

Waving one last time Bayne turned his back on them and started down the hill, toward the lights of Haven.

That was a good thing you did.

‘Don’t start,’ he said.

No, I mean it. I think she needed to hear that…and I think Xavier needed you to trust him with Colby.

‘They only have to walk two steps, Teyat.’

It’s symbolic you ass.

~*~

After Bayne left them, Colby looked over at him. “You’re not mad are you? That I killed him?”

“Mad?” Xavier frowned, awash in confusion. “Why would I be mad?”

“I didn’t think you were going to be able to do it, but if you were and if you felt you needed to, and I took that away from you…” Colby dropped her gaze to the ground at their feet.

Her words trailed off and Xavier reached down to take her hands in his. When she looked up at him he gave her fingers a little squeeze. “I couldn’t have done it, but I’m thankful that you could.”

Colby nearly deflated with relief, a long sigh slipped past her lips to tickle Xavier’s chest, and she tilted her head up to smile at him. At the sight of her grin something grew within Xavier. Something that wasn’t gratitude and wasn’t love though it contained the seeds of both. It was something that filled him and felt as right as his captivity by Scholar had felt wrong.

Colby closed the distance between them, and pressed her lips against his. They were soft, warm and inviting. He half-sighed into them and then kissed her back, deeper, tangling one hand in her hair and holding her gently against him. Their tongues entwined and he felt her fingers splayed against his shoulder blades, holding onto him as surely as he was her.

When they parted his heart hammered in his chest, and his fingers shook. Looking down at Colby, at the wistful look on her face and the softness in her eyes he knew what the new feeling he was experiencing was. Belonging. He felt as though he belonged here. In this place, with this woman, at this time.

As they dressed in their warmer clothes, preparing to reenter the portal, they took their time, smiling like fools. Eventually, Xavier put his arm around Colby’s waist, “Izart.”

Colby began to step forward and then paused. “Xavier,” she said. “There’s something that still confuses me. Scholar kept talking about ‘his masterpiece’ and shadows and he mentioned you—”

Xavier laughed, half-sadly, pulling her gently toward the portal. “I’ll tell you all about it Colby. As we walk.”

***

If you like Lost and Found you may also like Shades of Green which is set in the same swamp, or “Sister Margaret” which has some familiar characters and is completely free to read.

All other chapters can be found here –> Lost and Found

And it’s done! Thank you so much for following along. I hope you enjoyed, Lost and Found.

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April 4th, 2011 (Lost and Found, Reviews)

I have a new layout. If you’re reading this on livejournal pop over to my main site (http://www.rhondaparrish.com) and take a look. It’s a lovely green layout that looks fresh and ready for spring*. My friend BD made it for me, because she is incredibly awesome. I actually want to write a whole blog entry about how awesome she is and invaluable to my writing, but, that would embaress her. I don’t want to do that (and not just because she could totally kick my ass), so I’ll just leave it at this:

BD, you rock. Thank you.

In other news, Heather, from Doubleshot Reviews gave Lost and Found a read and made me happy with her review. She analyzed Xavier and Colby’s characters a little bit, found them believable and gave them a thumbs up. That makes me smile. You can check out the whole review here: Lost and Found Review.

Lost and Found is almost done! That’s crazy. It seems like it should keep going, but next week will be the final chapter. Then what am I going to do for my Monday blog entries? I’m going to have to like, think of something clever to write, or something. I apologise in advance ;) I do hope you’ll check back next week though, to get the final chapter of Lost and Found and see how it all turns out.

Whee? :)

*I took the photo used in the new layout. Another point in the win column if you ask me.

 

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For anyone new to this blog, I’ve been serializing one of my stories, Lost and Found, by posting one chapter every other week. If you’d like to start at the beginning (which is a very good place to start) you can follow this link and it will take you to the main page for Lost and Found where I’ve got links to all the posted chapters, reviews and all that good stuff.

This week the audio version of the chapter has been delayed, but I will post it here as soon as it is possible.

Chapter Thirteen

A bizarre-looking man spinning a flail in tight circles over his head met Bayne on the landing at the top of the stairs. The left side of his face bore three great gouge marks, old scars that looked like he’d gotten on the wrong side of a grizzly. His eyes were pain-filled, and there was no mystery as to the source. Two bandaged shapes erupted out of his ribcage.

An extra set of arms? How lovely.

‘Yes, everyone should have one,’ Bayne thought back, and then ducked to avoid the spiked ball the stranger had aimed at his head. It whistled as it passed, far too close, to his ear.

Stepping to the side, Bayne left one leg in front of the other man and, with Teyat’s handle clasped between his hands like a hammer, slammed them down with all his strength between the man’s shoulder blades. The thug was driven forward and tripped over Bayne’s foot before tumbling, flail-first, down the stairs. A guttural and incoherent cry preceded the wet thud of his body hitting the bottom.

Efficient, but not much fun.

‘Sorry, but I am in a bit of a hurry.’

Bayne looked around himself. There were three doorways, but only one was closed. He peered into the two open ones to find a storeroom and a stark bedroom. Neither was inhabited so he stepped back and assessed the closed door.

‘Seems likely to be a bad idea.’

Yes

‘Got any good ones?’

Not a single one.

‘Alright then,’ Bayne took a step back and then kicked the door open. As it swung forward he flattened his back against the wall beside it. When nothing bad happened, he tilted Teyat so he could see much of the room reflected in the flat of its blade.

A stone table with hinged iron bars dominated the center of the room and various tools of torture hung from the walls. The floor was patched with stains and over by the single window, open to the elements, was an iron cage. It was cubical with each edge being barely longer than Bayne was tall.

Something shifted in the corner of the cage furthest from the door and Bayne sucked his breath in through his teeth as he recognized Colby. Her hair hung, lank, around her face and her clothes were filthy.

Pulling his gaze off her, Bayne forced himself to continue scanning the room. There, by the end of the table, he saw another person who looked so comfortable in the room it could only be one person. Scholar.

He, the source of Xavier’s mutations and nightmares, an object of legend and myth in Haven, was the man holding Bayne’s sister prisoner. Now, seeing him for the first time, Bayne was surprised. He had expected more.

Scholar wasn’t big and didn’t look strong or even rich. He just looked old. Old and mad. He was dressed in ordinary civilian clothes; a homespun tunic and wool breeches that hung off his gaunt frame. His scraggly grey hair hung to his shoulders in greasy-looking strands and was so thin that even in the reflection Bayne could see the liver spots which marked his scalp like a treasure map.

‘Here goes nothing,’ Bayne thought and, lifting Teyat to an offensive position, he bolted around the corner of the doorway and headed straight toward Scholar.

“Bayne, don’t!” he heard Colby shout. He glanced in her direction to see her moving toward the front of the cage then looked back at Scholar just in time to see a man-sized shadow disentangle itself from the shadows and move, with unnatural speed and silence, toward him. It was vaguely triangular with long arms that almost reached the ground, and a head with two gaping holes where its eyes should be. It had no legs, instead a sort of smoky funnel held it above the ground like it was floating.

Bayne felt its cold grip around his right wrist, and, holding Teyat in only one hand, he struck awkwardly at it. The darkness parted as the blade swept through it, and then merged back together in the sword’s wake. The creature was stronger than any creature Bayne had ever encountered and it twisted his arm behind his back, then grabbed the second, holding him fast and helpless. He struggled but to no avail. The icy tendrils which served as the shadow creature’s fingers burned him with their cold, chilling his hand and weakening his grip on his sword. He heard Teyat’s curse in his mind but ignored it, tightening his grip as best he could and watching Scholar.

The skin on his face hung from his bones like his clothes did his body, but underneath the wrinkles Bayne could see a strong nose and hollow, haunted eyes that were a vibrant shade of green and lit with maniacal heat. Scholar tilted his head back and laughed and in that instant Bayne’s fear for Colby solidified into anger.

Scholar leaned against the stone table in the center of the room, watching Bayne and the door behind him. “Is my soldier going to be coming soon? I really do need it back, I’ve invested so much in it already.”

“Xavier is a long way from here.”

“Oh,” Scholar smiled mockingly. “Is that its name? How quaint. You’re wrong about its location though, its around here somewhere. I saw it out the window rolling around in the dirt with my hounds master. I could be patient and wait for it, I suppose, but I bet I could think up a way to speed things along.” He crossed over to the wall with its myriad of medical devices hanging on it. He ran his bony fingers over them. Hatchets, scalpels, daggers, tongs, spreaders, skewers, Scholar treated them like instruments of love, caressing them with his eyes and stroking them with his fingers.

Colby made a soft sound of distress and pressed herself against the back of the cage. Bayne shifted his grip on Teyat and gritted his teeth, grinding his molars together.

Scholar plucked a long tapered rod about the width of his thumb off the wall. He waved it through the air and then bowed elaborately in Bayne’s direction before posing with the pointed skewer.

Colby choked on a sob and her eyes grew wide. She continued to push against the back of the cage, her eyes never leaving the weapon in Scholar’s hands.

Bayne’s grip on his sword jerked spasmodically and his stomach clenched into a fist but through a heroic effort of will he managed to keep his voice from shaking too obviously. “What are you going to do with that?”

“Nothing…fatal.” The man shuffled toward Colby, trapped in her cage.

Bayne struggled against the shadow holding him captive but it held him fast. His lips twisted up into a bitter snarl and his hands became fists on Teyat’s hilt.

Scholar reached through the bars, deceptively quick for his appearance, and grabbed a handful of Colby’s hair. She jerked her body to the side, twisting as far away from him as she could, but the cage prevented her from going far. “There’s a good girl,” Scholar crooned, running the skewer over her skin. He slid it down her shoulder and then across the side of her torso. The iron grazed the curve of her breast and traveled slowly down her rib cage. Then he changed his grip and shoved the shiv into her.

Colby screamed and moved to curl up around the wound, but the cage and the man’s hand in her hair held her fast. He gave the skewer a twist, pulled it out and held it, wet with blood, ready to stab again.

~*~

Xavier had just begun to climb the rickety stairs up to the tower when the body dropped to his left, barely missing him. He felt the wind of its passing then heard the sound, like that of a rotten melon being smashed, of it hitting the ground. A shudder ran through him and he felt his stomach lurch in response.

“Is it?” he asked, frozen in place on the stairs, deliberately not looking down.

“Bayne? Nah, looks like Tobias.”

Relief swept through Xavier, and he continued up the spiraling stairs, taking them two at a time, but keeping a tight grip on the railing with his right hand.

“Oh, is that its name?”

He heard Scholar’s voice as he reached the top of the stairs, and repressed the shiver of fear that slid through him at its familiar tones. He darted to the side so his former captor wouldn’t see him through the doorway and ducked into a side room. It was small with shelves on two walls and a window in another. One broken shutter hung crookedly from it and sunlight streamed through the opening, throwing an elongated shadow out behind him.

“We hidin’ in a new storeroom then?”

“No,” Xavier said, glancing at his tentacles and sounding far more confident than he felt. “Now we’re going to see how good these things are for climbing.”

“Yer gonna get us killed. ‘Member what I told ya ’bout heros?”

“That was martyrs, actually.” Xavier said quietly. “You also wanted me to kill him remember? You can’t have it both ways.”

“‘At was before I knew ye were plannin’ on hangin’ off the side of a castle like some sorta spider.”

“You know what?” Xavier grunted as he hoisted himself up so he was sitting on the window ledge facing the room. “If you can’t say something helpful, don’t say anything at all.”

His shadow grunted but refrained from commenting and Xavier took a deep breath and leaned out so he could see the castle wall. Then he stole a quick glance down and immediately wished he hadn’t. It was a long way to the ground. A very long way. He cursed softly and tightened his grip on the edges of the window.

He drew in a long breath and let it out slowly. Maybe he should just go in the door after all? Maybe Bayne had already taken care of Scholar, maybe— The thought died in his head, as did any ideas of alternate plans as Colby’s pained scream came to his ears. He sucked in a deep breath and lifted his feet so he was standing on the ledge rather than sitting on it, and pressed his body against the wall.

It was rough, and many of the bricks stuck out just enough for him to curl his fingers and tentacles around. To his left he could see the window he knew belonged to Scholar’s laboratory. It wasn’t that far.

With his mind whirling with all the possible scenarios being played out in the room one over, Xavier took a deep breath and shuffled his feet along the ledge of the windowsill, stopping only when they were as far over as they could go. Reaching as far to the left as he could, Xavier scrambled with his fingers and tentacles both for even the tiniest ledge to hold on to. He found several but none of them felt strong enough to support his weight without crumbling.

In the other room heard the sound of Scholar’s mocking voice. He knew if he could calm down and focus he’d be able to make out the words, but he didn’t have time. He looked over at the window once more and judged its distance. He might just be able to make it. Maybe.

“Don’ do it.”

“Shut up.”

“I’m tellin’ ya–don’t.”

He tensed his body and crouched slightly. Without giving himself time to consider what he was doing, or talk himself out of it, he jumped sideways toward the other window.

For a sickening moment, he thought he wasn’t going to make it, but then one tentacle managed to grab a hold of Scholar’s windowsill and hold. The air was forced from his lungs as he slammed into the wall, but the stone was thick enough that he only heard a dull thud.

“Shadows are fun, aren’t they?” Xavier heard Scholar say, as his lungs filled once more with air. He pulled himself up into the window and looked in to see Scholar speaking to Bayne, his back to the window.

Bayne had a look of hopeless self-recrimination etched onto his face. A man-like shadow stood behind him, holding his arms. Xavier had seen it before, and had felt its chilling touch, the same as Bayne was now.

Colby was in the cage Xavier had spent so much time in. Her hands were manacled, and her side was bleeding. She didn’t see him, and he didn’t dare say anything, not yet.

“They are so malleable, shadows.” Scholar held a bloody skewer in one hand and paced back and forth in front of Bayne, gesturing grandly with it.

Xavier caught Bayne’s eye over Scholar’s shoulder, and though the warrior’s face remained impassive and shielded, Xavier saw him give the faintest hint of a nod.

“That so?” Bayne asked.

Scholar looked up at him and laughed. “You mean you haven’t noticed? Those ones, they can do many things but they aren’t my masterpiece, oh no… no they aren’t.”

Xavier carefully inched his way through the window. His hands were strangely steady and the roiling in his stomach had been replaced by a steadfastness he’d rarely known in his life.

Colby looked up and saw him. She gasped, but Scholar didn’t seem to hear. Xavier raised a finger to his lips and, hoping he looked more confident than he felt, smiled at her. Colby offered him a watery smile in return, and with one last lingering look in her direction, he snuck up behind Scholar.

“My masterpiece, ah, it can’t take physical form like these ones, but oh, what it can do!” Scholar said, sounding more excited with every word.

I can do this, Xavier thought, and then wrapped one tentacle around the mad man’s throat and used another to cover his mouth. He lifted Scholar off his feet by his neck and turned him to face him. “I heard you wanted me to come back.”

Scholar’s look of shock abruptly turned to fear. He began to kick wildly and stabbed the skewer in his hand into the tentacle covering his mouth. Xavier felt the point penetrate his skin, the burn was fiercer than even the dog’s teeth had been, and he cried out. Instinctively his tentacle began to pull away, but he stopped himself and instead tightened his grip on Scholar’s mouth. All it would take is a single word from the madman and he would be lost. They all would.

Using one of his free tentacles, Xavier pulled the skewer out and dropped it on the floor by the cage where it clattered against the stone. Out of the corner of his eye he saw Colby reach through the bars to snatch it off the ground. Holding it firmly in her still-manacled hands she jammed it into the lock on the door.

Behind him he heard Bayne struggling with the shadow that held him, but the sound seemed to come from very far away as his awareness focused on the man he held. Keeping one tentacle over Scholar’s mouth at all times, Xavier used his other ones and his hands to turn the old man so that he was facing him. Looking into his familiar eyes Xavier deliberately recalled all the pain and fear he’d experienced while looking into them, how much he’d suffered at Scholar’s hands. He was no longer the one in the cage, the helpless one. He was in control now. Him. Xavier. “You drugged me, you kept me in that cage, half-starved, half-frozen and tortured me for years.”

Scholar kicked out at him, hitting him squarely in the belly, but the blow was weak and Xavier barely felt it. He slammed Scholar up against the cage beside where Colby was frantically working to pick the lock. His head hit one of the bars and Xavier’s tentacle muffled his cry of pain. He pulled Scholar toward him once more, watching as his head flopped about like a scarecrow’s and growled, “You deserve to die!”

His words echoed around the chamber. They were true. Xavier knew they were true. He’d come here to stop Scholar, to kill him, because it was the right thing to do. He knew it without question. And yet…

All it would take is one more blow. All he had to do was throw Scholar out the open window, or slam his head into the ground, or even toss him to Bayne, who could certainly choke him with his bare hands, but he couldn’t. Despite how much most of his being was crying out at him to take revenge, to punish the man who had robbed him of so much, he couldn’t do it.

Colby moved, and something in her posture captured Xavier’s attention, tearing it from himself and the man he held. Her back was straight, shoulders back and her chin set.

Then Scholar screamed into Xavier’s tentacle and, as his body stiffened in shock and pain, the tip of the skewer emerged from his chest. Colby stepped out from behind him, her face was relaxed, but her fingers trembled slightly. Xavier looked back at Scholar and watched his eyes go blank. As his body lost all its tension Xavier released him and he fell, like a child’s discarded toy onto the floor.

Xavier looked over at Bayne in time to see the shadow creature evaporating like smoke in a wind, then turned back toward the cage.

“Colby,” he breathed, holding her against him as best he could through the cage, and running a hand through her hair. “Colby…”

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If you like Lost and Found you may also like Shades of Green which is set in the same swamp, or “Sister Margaret” which has some familiar characters and is completely free to read.

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